First Progress Report Coming Up...

Right,

well, its been Just over 4 months since this blog was created and I began this journey in earnest as a slave/toilet. Things haven't always gone exactly as we might have planned when we initially set out and signed our contract of my slavery, however, I must admit that there is a huge part of me that is amazed that we have gotten this far, that I am still driven to succeed in my aim and I'm still determined to become a fully functioning toilet on demand.


Difficulties have arisen mainly because life just isn't as simple as we imagine its going to be - I'm thinking in terms of work rotas, family functions, etc - and I have to say, that I think its been a real testament to my Master's abilities that he has always managed to keep some sort of training programme going, whatever the unexpected change in circumstances!!

However, we have both long accepted that there are limitations as to what we can do, just the two of us together in a scene night after night, week after week, a great help has been the fact that we now have a regular fuck toy, who usually comes round once a week and is training to take both our fists and is interested enough in scat to give it a go from time to time. We have been planning a weekend away with some friends since we first started playing with scat seriously again, one is the Piglet whom I managed to feed a year ago, in the scene that made me begin to understand that scat could actually be quite good fun, when you let it be. I will never forget the shock I felt at the time when I saw him devour my very full, very nasty load and then lick the floor clean - knowing that he had by that stage consumed at least two other loads of shit from my Master...

It was this that started the very gentle process that took me to the point I referred to in my opening post - basically, stopping the "I want to be forced, and I want to hate it" approach. - fun though it is from time to time as an alternative from willing service, to getting to the stage of 'well, if I just take one lick, it can't be *that* bad' and then the realisation that actually, once the flavour of the shit is in your mouth and on your tongue, its gotten as bad as its gonna get and you might as well keep going!

But I digress, I guess I'm particularly looking forward to playing with this piglet and his new partner/dom because it will be such a role reversal - last time we met, I was trying (and succeeding, much to my own surprise!) to be a scat dom, this time, I'm the owned toilet slave, the lowest pig of the heap, not to mention that my natural competitive streak is garunteed to kick in - even though i know I'm way out of my depth taking on this particular pig!

So basically, this weekend will prove whether or not we've achieved anything in the last few months! I plan to keep you well informed throughout the weekend, so keep your fingers crossed that I don't let myself (or my Master!) down!

niboi

About time too!

Sorry for keeping you all waiting yet again - thanks to everyone who has been in touch to ask what's going on.

Its been an odd few weeks in many ways - firstly I had to have some surgery which meant that play/training had to be pretty light for quite some time - pretty much all healed up now, so getting stuck back in!

To narrow it down to the best session over the last few weeks - definitely getting up first thing in the morning and heading straight into the box to be fed - thankfully not too much to deal with at that time of day, but a great feeling and nice to prove that it can be done.

This weekend has seen us get back to some proper hard training - highlight so far was heading up to bed, getting myself lubed and plugged ready for a good hard fuck, and following that with some unplanned eating -very nice to do it in a slightly different setting rather than down on plastic playsheets as usual - one of the first times for me to eat whilst not being in the box or restrained too!

The chastity device (CB3000) also went on, with the intention of it staying on for at least a week, but with my current job keeping me stuck in a chair for so long and the fact that I've never been able to get a chastity device that fits well meant it had to come off after about 30 hours. The raw spots on my cock are recovering. Slowly!

For my part its nice to get back down to some serious play and to start feeling focused again - will hopefully give you a more detailed description of the next session when it happens!

Update and apology

Right.

First of all - apologies for taking so long to get this blog going, I've had a bit of a think lately and I'm a lot clearer on what I want this blog to be, and what it will reflect.

Briefly to summarize training since the opening blog - there have been some amazing sessions lately - we've played with local guys, which we never thought would happen, and had a few visiting pigs drop in while they're passing through the area.

Major achievements so far have been; taking a fist (not the first time this has happened technically, but the first time I've been certain its in as far as the wrist!). As the fisting top isn't into scat, my Master told me to empty my guts into a bowl before our fisting buddy arrived. After he had left, my hands were cuffed behind my back, and I was ordered to eat my entire dump out of the bowl - hardest part was not being able to use my hands, picking shit up with mouth and teeth is a lot harder. It wasn't a big load at all, but it was almost certainly the shit I had eaten the previous day recycling itself though the system - the fact it was cold by this stage was an interesting change!

Biggest achievement so far was with John - a local guy who we'd been hoping to meet for a long time, we chatted online, he came in, had a quick cuppa, then sat on the box and fed me (almost) his entire load - total scene lasted about 30 minutes which is incredibly short by my standards - I think the pressure and the fact I didn't know him helped me to focus on being a proper toilet - plus I didn't want to let myself down in front of him. There was a small handful of shit left at the end, and I regret that when he asked me if I wanted to eat it, I asked him to smear it instead. I've felt so annoyed with myself about this since that I won't be turning down the chance to clean an entire load again next time I get that far.

John came back and played with the two of us the following weekend - was a really great, relaxed session and he's now a lot more confident with scat play - hopefully there will be more soon although he is not likely to be local for much longer.

Favourite scene so far though has been receiving a text message unexpectedly when I was out telling me that as soon as I got home I was to strip, take poppers and get under the rim stool - got really horny on the way home and managed to eat a fair amount - I was even hornier, because I thought someone was watching on cam, but this wasn't actually the case.

On a similar note - we made my first ever vid last weekend - was somewhat unplanned, and is incredibly basic - just smearing with a gas mask, but reviews so far have been complimentary, and its given us loads to work on in terms of setting up other vids in future.

Right - that's us up to date to this week then - now for the announcement you've all been waiting for. On Feb 23rd, we finally signed the contract making me an owned toilet slave - won't go into the contract details just now, but basically, I have to eat every Friday and whenever, wherever I'm told to. - updates on how this is going will be coming a lot more frequently from now on - we had deliberately held off from signing it to use the time to now as an experiment to see if this could work before making it official.

Areas where there haven't been much progress so far; sobriety. I still need to be a little wasted and very horny to make eating work - I'm gonna work on this by doing some solo play and my Master is going to be shitting on my face so that I can acclimatise.

Training background

I'm not quite sure at what age I first became interested in shit, it was certainly before I had reached an age of sexual awareness. As I became older my interest in shit became closely associated with sexual arousal, and by my teens, it was closely associated with the desire to submit, to be overpowered, and by what I later realised was my craving for BDSM.

When I was 16, I discovered RedRight's scat site http://www.winternet.com/~redright/scatsite/ the affect this had was profound - I knew straight away that I wanted to learn to become a human toilet, and coupled with my sexual fantasies, inspired by the stories on his site, I wanted to be forced to eat and digest human waste - ideally I wanted to be bound, tortured, and forced to consume vast amounts of shit.

Despite some mild playing around on my own during my teenage years, these fantasies weren't realised until some years later. The problem however, that I was only interested in being forced to act as a toilet - it was not something I found myself able to do voluntarily. This led to many disappointing sessions (although there were some good ones!) No matter how often I was forced I still hated the act of eating human waste - no matter how often I fantasied over the act.

Eventually through trial and error, I realised that forced scenes, whilst horny, were not always helpful in realising my goal of becoming a capable toilet. Once accepting this, I, with the help of my partner, an experienced scat pig, have learnt to appreciate shit and all its associated smells, tastes and textures. Over the course of the next few months I hope to learn to eat it willingly and often, regardless of how sexually aroused I am.

This blog is intended to keep track of my progress, I will be using it to chart both my successes and failures. The first week of my training has been designed to assist me in learning to eat large loads - sober.

Here goes!